14Jan / 2010

Less Than Three Months

I’m behind schedule. That’s all I know. What’s the use of a Gantt chart when it can’t be followed? But I guess we’re all behind schedule. Except James.

We have around 2 and a half months to go before the deadliest deadline of all — end of classes for this semester. And I’m behind schedule which means between February and March we’re going to be zombies on your lawn.

Looking back. New Year’s resolutions. Let’s see if I’m a kiddo of honor. Guess not. The running spree came out to be the right thing at the wrong time. I underestimated my busyness when I though about it. Project 365 is doing good, so as the planner use. I’m still at it. Contact lenses are now a part of my everyday life and it’s great (except for the first few days). And that everything will be well for everyone in 2010 I have yet to find out. That’s only one resolution not done guys — running.

Running turned out to be an additional burden to my busy life. I have a deadly deadline to meet and I can’t do other stuff just yet. Get fit, be healthy might not be super now. But I do moderate my intake of stuff and I don’t drink soda unless I have no choice. I’m healthy though. Maybe change that to look healthy. Aside; if you’re on weight loss, this:� http://www.revive-weightloss.com.

Let’s get random and quick. I attended Miss Cebu 2010, supported Darmae, took pic with beauties and enjoyed the night. Will watch Pyro Competition this Saturday. I made new cool friends lately. Tumblr lost the tumblarity nuisance (for now). I learned that I’m a Perfect Melancholic. I got broke within a small span of time. The button of my camera’s dislodged. Sinulog will be this Sunday which means 4AM mass for the family again brrr. And many more. The most significant is my attending the Ms. Cebu 2010. You can never replace the happiness of seeing that smile. Nyaks.

That’s all for now. Back to work.

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07Mar / 2009

Shall I Or Shall I Not Hibernate?

Never have I been so stressed like what I am experiencing right now. It is March and it means for students like me that it is the month of giving-it-all-until-your-last-breath and also, judgment month. Phew.

I won’t deny that I am scared of the outcome of my grades. This semester is very bad for me. I have done okay in the previous semesters. Now, doom. Where’s my future?

Next week will be a good one. Good. An exam a day keeps the brain cells away. BTW, that was sarcasm. I have so many exams and a database to build and a play to manage and an ISA to make. We all do. I understand that no “good” student is idle on a month like this. We all are being tortured. But I like it. Not much.

That is why I’m asking myself, hibernate or not? From being active (i.e. blogging) in the online world of course. I will try to be less active in the next 14 days and try to drown myself in my lessons until I get high. I know Mr. Lappy will tempt me. And I know I will be tempted. Hope not.

So help me God. Cartesian or not.

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04Mar / 2009

Incompetent Enough

It often left me staring into nothingness when I think about my life after college. I have always dreamed of graduating on time which is proven to be a very difficult feat in the course I am taking. But sometimes, thinking about it gives me the feeling that I am not at all ready for the outside world. The feeling of incompetence strikes in.

Gone are the days when companies come grabbing students in our department for work even before they graduate. Gone is the golden age of this science. Gone are the days of the very good pioneer teacher. What awaits us who are left to crawl on what’s left of this sullen state?

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I ask myself, am I good enough or deserving to be put on even the most minimal position in the industry? I couldn’t answer. I have yet to learn a year from now. It sucks when you hear that some mentors get in the way of students’ ambitions. It feels awful ending a subject learning almost nil from it. Most of all, it feels embarrassing being put side by side with students from other schools and they think you know a lot when in fact you don’t.

I hear a comment from another department’s teacher that we from our department are not on in the fight anymore. We are losers that sometimes win. Nevertheless, losers? I don’t call us that. I still have the superiority complex hanging on my sleeve; about to fall, of course.

So what do I do? What do we do? We try hard on our own. We seek what we cannot find in our own zones. We try hard to become visible. Make ourselves competent for short. The game is on. It will be for a lifetime. When your parents at school go neglect you, be your own parent. The challenge is on.

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